A Client’s Perspective

My Experience

In the middle of my last relationship, of two years,  I started birth control and antidepressants. This caused my emotions and depression to increase tremendously. I started to isolate myself from everyone and everything in my life. I had no motivation or excitement in my life. I was angry all the time, didn’t enjoy my sport, and most importantly, I started to hate myself.  I started to believe that I wasn’t good enough for anyone, even myself. I had people telling me he cheated on me and he convinced me otherwise. I was worried constantly and had no trust anymore. The last eight months of our relationship was a lie. This made me have severe trust issues with future relationships, even friends. I didn’t believe anything anyone said to me.

I would go on dates, give myself away, entertain many people, until I hated it. I hated giving myself away. I was done feeling unworthy and unwanted. I took a step back and saw that this lifestyle was not for me. I have never had self esteem problems, until my ex boyfriend ingrained into my head that I was not enough. I had to be strong and confident and know that I am in fact enough. I was done letting him take my sparkle away from me. I was done letting him control my happiness. I worked on myself constantly and gained my love for myself back. I relearned that I am not the last priority, I am the first priority to myself before anything else. I take my own needs into play, I check in on myself, I take myself on dates, and the self respect and self love I have gained, is something I have noticed and people around me have also noticed. People tell me that my happiness is back, my smile is back and that is what is most important in life. 

Over the past year, I have laughed more than I ever have, smiled more, and loved more. I try to remind myself that you can not control what other people do or think. You can’t let what other people do to you affect your day or happiness. As long as you are happy and you are enjoying life, who cares what people think or say about you. People are so consumed in other peoples lives when they are not satisfied with their own life. Take a step back, look around, and enjoy what you have right in front of you.